To Dance is to Live

## Personal Matters

Christmas has been going really well. It's crazy how quickly the new year is coming. This has probably been the best year of my entire life, despite it all. Despite having a total nervous breakdown in April. I've gotten back on my horse in a way I never have before in my entire life.

I've always had obligations before. Now, though, I make a living writing full-time. I've been doing so much writing and coding. There are so many things I don't have to worry about anymore. I'm really happy I invested so much time and energy into university and Write Club, but not having any of those kinds of obligations anymore has made it so easy to focus on what truly matters to me.

Creating [calgarygroups.ca](https://calgarygroups.ca) with Yvonne has been a wonderful success. CM Calgary [posted about us](https://www.facebook.com/share/p/16LbEC6TJq/) and we gained a lot of traffic from that. I just did a major overhaul of the site due to a few small errors Yvonne made—it was easy enough to fix. I also added about 50 more organizations myself in the process.

And then there's my newest personal project that I'm totally in love with: [brennan.day](https://brennan.day). It's been SO fun to work on my personal site like this. I love how it looks and how it operates. I'm writing a few deep-dive posts into specifics on certain technical implementations as well as design choices.

I'm really lucky. Life is so meaningful and rich. Funnily enough, I feel way more comfortable about my health anxiety since I created a [/death](/death) page. I don't need to worry anymore about dying suddenly, I feel. I want to preserve my writing and projects, and release them freely to the public.

## The Absurd Hypothetical Advent Calendar

For the past month on [750words.com](https://750words.com), Buster has implemented a [daily prompt](https://community.750words.com/c/blog/what-is-the-absurd-hypotheticals-advent-calendar). Most of these have been silly beign thought experiments, but a few days ago there a question that I'm going to be chewing on for a long time:

Would you rather live only 5 more years but be able to buy anything you want and be remembered forever, or live to 100 with an average but comfortable life that's mostly forgotten? Which do you choose and why?

I feel as though as I currently am, I could make a lot of meaningful and good progress in just five years. Again, I feel as though I run into the issue of what exactly I could buy, as I would want to focus on philanthropy and humanitarianism.

On the flip side of the coin, I love life. I would be perfectly okay being forgotten because no matter what my legacy is, no matter how impressive, it will be forgotten eventually. Only because entropy is inevitable. I think of how quickly the past five years h