🎧 Ep. 2: Valerie Rayne's Smoking Fetish Journey

Ep. 2: Valerie Rayne's Smoking Fetish Journey

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Hey there! Welcome to the Valerie Rayne Show, an adults-only not-safe-for-work "podcast" filled with sex and stories from a professional masturbator and adult content creator. Listener discretion is advised!

I'm Valerie Rayne, a 39-year-old wannabe kinkster, blog-a-holic, mom of six and adult content creator. In episode 2 of The Valerie Rayne Show, we'll be talking a little bit about my smoking fetish experiences. I'll read you a couple posts from my smoking fetish blog, Valerie Rayne Smokes, and answer some of the questions I get asked most often. I imagine this will be a topic we revisit from time to time, so if there's anything you'd like me to cover more in-depth, please reach out and let me know.

As always, I invite you to engage and interact with me and my content on any platforms you follow me on and highly encourage you to check me out on BlueSky, @valerierayne13, to get all my sexy thoughts and content updates in real time.

So, let me start by reading two posts from my blog that will tell you a bit more about how my smoking fetish all got started.

In this first post, I'll tell you a little bit about how I started smoking and when I officially became a full time smoker.

*¹My Mom, my grandparents, my aunts and my uncles all smoked. I grew up around smokers and it was always a part of my life. By the time I was 11 years old, I knew I wanted to do “that”.

At 11, an older cousin, my older sister and I snuck out to the back alley behind our house to share the single cigarette we had stolen from my aunt. The adults had all gone out to bingo, a common pastime for adults as I was growing up and we could’ve smoked inside the house but we were all too scared of getting caught.

I remember my sister coughing dramatically while both my cousin and I seemed like we had been smoking a long time. It came naturally to us. I remember experiencing a euphoric headrush and thinking to myself that I was definitely going to do “that” again!

Over the next few years, I would continue sneaking smokes from my Mom, especially if I was hanging out with this cousin. As one of the oldest cousins, he was regularly our babysitter when the adults would go to bingo on paydays. I always loved to smoke in the bathroom, standing in front of the mirror and watching as I exhaled the smoke from between my lips.

At 14, I began dating a punk rocker who loved to claim we were “straightedge except for sex“. That meant no drinking, no drugs – including cigarettes. Only once while we were together did I sneak a smoke that he never knew about during a night out with friends I rarely hung out with. It was outside the local Wal-Mart and I made them huddle all around me while we shared a single cigarette between the four of us, so worried that my boyfriend would catch me.

At 16, I began dating Alfie, the father of my three oldest kids. He was already a regular and heavy smoker and even though our relationship was abysmal, he always supported my smoking habit. He was also hugely influential in the beginning of my 20-year-long daily weed habit which eventually saw me smoking 5 – 7 joints a day!

I continued smoking through each of my pregnancies and while I felt horrible for doing so, I often justified it by saying life was so stressful (which was/is true) that smoking was saving people’s lives (not mine but other people’s). I definitely have always been the type of person who smokes more when I’m feeling stressed out.

I’ve never legitimately tried to quit smoking. I’ve had multiple hospital stays, two weeks or longer, where I will claim I am done with smoking and won’t smoke for the duration but the moment I’m released back into the real world, I pick up right where I left off. Smoking is my favorite thing to do and the idea of quitting feels like choosing to suffer. Why should I deny myself my favorite thing?!?

I have now been smoking cigarettes consistently for 21 years. I quit smoking weed about 8 months ago and haven’t struggled at all with that, which was a serious shock to me. I always thought it’d be harder to quit weed than it would be to quit cigarettes. I don’t know if I’ll ever quit smoking and it’s not currently on my radar to quit. Maybe one day but not anytime soon…

In this next post, I delve into my discovery of my smoking fetish, which took me a long time to realize.

*²After reading my post about my smoking journey, a follower pointed out that it didn’t really touch on the fetish aspect of my smoking experiences. How did I discover my smoking fetish and when did I realize I had a smoking fetish?

I’ve touched a little bit on the things I really love about smoking and what turns me on about it but now, I want to try to remember how my fetish was born and grew. Let me just preface by saying, I smoked for a long time before I realized it could even be a fetish.

When I uploaded my first smoking video to Pornhub, The Smoky Blowjob in 2018 (which is currently unavailable, sorry), I wasn’t entirely aware of the possibility of a smoking fetish. I was just a heavy smoker who sometimes included smoking in sex acts. Yes, I obviously thought it was hot and often found it to be a major turn on, but I didn’t realize other people felt the same way. 2018 Val was dumb, what can I say…

Then the comments began flooding in. Some said something along the lines of, “You should make more smoking content” and a door was opened. “Have you ever tried blowing smoke rings? Do you do snap inhales? What about a dangle?“. Now that my eyes had been opened to the fact that others might be turned on by smoking, it lit me up (pun intended)! A door was open and I ran through it hard and fast.

Because I smoke so much, it just seemed natural to include it in my solo content. It quickly became my favorite type of content to make. There is something wildly sensual about smoking a cigarette and thinking about someone watching me enjoy it. Sometimes I think my smoking fetish is very tied up in my exhibitionism fetish. Would it arouse me as much if people weren’t watching and consuming? Hard to say.

I differentiate between the regular smokes and the fetish smokes because I smoke so much. A regular smoke has no thought or intention behind it – it’s just light up and smoke. A fetish smoke is purposeful, the inhales are deep, the exhales are controlled in specific ways. The regular smoke, I feel in my head. The fetish smoke, I feel in my body.

Over the years, I feel like my smoking fetish has grown and expanded. It’s become a big part of who I am as a person and as a content creator. Not only do I enjoy actually smoking, I enjoy watching people smoke and I enjoy talking about aspects of this fetish. I think about smoking as a fetish at least once a day, I convince myself not to quit or slow down because of the fetish, I have at least one fetish-focused smoke a day and I’ve created multiple communities online for smoking fetishists – what started as an exploration has turned into a full-on obsession!

This blog, an entire place for me to write solely about my smoking fetish, is proof positive of the expansion of my smoking fetish journey!

So to wrap up, I hadn’t really considered myself to be a smoking fetishist for about 15 years of my smoking journey. Hadn’t even realized it was possible! I’ve been a smoking fetishist, knowingly and fully aware of it, for about 7 or 8 years. As the years go on, I become more and more interested in smoking as a fetish and I believe it is very tied into my exhibitionism fetish.

Now that I've read you some introduction to my smoking journey posts, let's go over some of the questions I get asked the most about my smoking fetish.

Do you really have a smoking fetish?

Yes, obviously!

When did you start smoking?

I had my first smoke at 11 and became a full-time smoker at 16. I didn't realize I had a smoking fetish until I was about 30.

How many smokes do you smoke a day?

I smoke about 3 packs a day, sometimes more, sometimes less. I'm a very heavy smoker and I hate it! The Boyfridnd and I often share smokes, so really I'm only smoking half a smoke every time.

What brand of smokes do you smoke?

My favorite brand is Canadian Classics White, but I don't typically have access to those so I literally smoke whatever I can get my hands on that's cheap. I smoke king size cigarettes, which are the largest you can get in Canada at about 85mm. I prefer an all-white cigarette over a cork-filtered cigarette but really, I'm not picky.

What is your favorite thing about smoking?

My favorite thing about smoking is and always has been the exhale. The next time we talk about my smoking fetish, we'll cover that in more detail.

Have you ever quit smoking or would you?

We'll cover this more next time but yes, I have quit smoking once in my mid-20s for about 3 months. One day, I plan on quitting for good, I'm just not ready yet.

Well folks, that's all for this episode of The Valerie Rayne Show. Thanks so much for listening and I hope you enjoyed!

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