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Sept. 5, 2026

Valerie Rayne
Sep 5, 20262 min read1 read

🗓 CURRENTS


⏰️ Current time: 4:05 PM

🧠 Current mood: Inspired

🩻 Current health: Feeling good but sore

🌈 Current weather: Gloomy and cold

📺 Currently watching: Gilmore Girls

📖 Currently reading: OBS Tutorials

🕹 Currently playing: Nothing

🎧 Currently listening to: Early 2000s pop/club bangers

🎓 Currenly learning about: OBS and multistreaming

🙏 Currently grateful for: The Boyfriend and his ability to listen to me vent, even if he has no idea what I'm talking about

🎯 Current goal(s): Blog, blog, blog! And finish a video I've been working on forever!!


I have been doing a terrible job of blogging daily or even weekly. Just been slacking hard on the blogging front. Really, I've been slacking on many fronts because my head has just been endlessly filled with thoughts and I've been suffering from decision paralysis and a touch of imposter syndrome.

It's also that time of year where the weather is changing, school is starting and 3 out of 6 of the kids have birthdays within days of each other. Everything feels like an overwhelming whirlwind, even though it's really not. I'm incredibly lucky because The Boyfriend deals with most of the stuff because he knows how stressed it all makes me; he does the school shopping and lunch making and birthday planning. So really, calm down Val…

I've been working hard on getting set up to livestream lately and feel like I'm making absolutely no progress, even though I know that's not true. I just want to livestream on my various sites with a dual camera setup and my toys and good audio and it all seems impossible. I had one successful multistream and every other time it's been a confusing, headache-y experience. It makes me miss the days of streaming on one site from my phone but I can't do that if I wanna use my toys and increase my earning potential.

I've had quite a few people offer assistance with whatever it is I'm struggling with but I'm not 100% sure what that is. A lot of times I feel like I'm not frustrated with what's actually happening but whatever is happening in my brain that just feels like it's all insurmountable. It sometimes feels like I'm creating problems that aren't really there.

Anyways, today I plan to catch up on a bunch of blogging that I've been neglecting to get finished. The amount of posts I have in draft is a little ridiculous! And then I really have to finish making a video that I have been working on for 2 weeks. I'm not great at talking to the camera and this video requires it and I've made like 18 different versions and none of them are just right, so… Man, everything just feels like a struggle these days…

Fingers crossed, it won't be so long until my next post…

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